So... I do not consider myself a genius by any means. Im sure my opinions and judgments on people's attitudes, intelligence, and approach may sometimes seem rather uppity. I'm really not. I just simply recognize that I put a lot of value in presentation and appearance. Not in the shallow sort of way, more of a "I care about how I represent myself to the world" sort of way.
For example: I'll talk about me for a bit.
I can often be a space cadette, I'm not always on point. I am a complete goofball. I enjoy laughing at fart noises and if you give me a slice of an orange with the skin still on it, don't be surprised if when you turn around, the next time you look at me it's in my mouth and I've got some dumb shit eating grin on my face. When I walk out my door and enter the world each day, my clothes might not be crisp, but they are reasonably neat and they fully represent me in all of my bright, loud uniqueness. I do not aspire to live in a mansion, own a jet, or vacation in the carribean on my private yacht; however I do desire to better myself and my own corner of the world the best I can with my time in it. To me that means loving those I meet everyday, taking every opportunity I get to learn a new lesson and sometimes the same one over and over again, and realize the opportunities that arise to combine the two to help those around me when I am able. Please know, given all that, I am far from sainthood, nor do I want it. I get angry, I sometimes have a short fuze. I can say mean hurtful things when I feel offended or threatened. My thoughts are sarcastic, dark and jaded as a result of life. Despite these things, I have hope: for love, for a better world, and for general happiness. In my very core, I am an optimist.
Me. Simply, human.
I have standards and expectations, wants and desires for my mate-to-be. I'm not looking for Bill Gates brain, wrapped up in Johnny Depps body, with Donald Trumps bank account. I won't deny that that would be a beautiful thing, but I doubt anyone is quite that lucky.
No, I believe that if I don't hold a reasonably high standard for "him" that we may end up unevenly yolked and that could spell bad ju-ju in the end. I don't want to set either of us up for negativity. So there you have it...
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